Back To Basics

I am going back to counting calories. As much as I want to try to do this without having to count...I need to. The number on the scale is going in the wrong direction and I won't lose at least 40 pounds by the new year if I don't go back to counting.

I don't care what Dr Martell said when he yelled at me two months ago for losing weight too quickly for surgery. If it's not too quickly for my health, then I don't think it's too quickly for surgery.

With that said, I am going back to 1000 calories a day and no liquid calories either. I have to do this. Granted I only need to lose about 20 lbs to have my surgery, but I'd rather shoot for 40 and end up just less than 10 pounds from my personal goal weight.

I need to go to Target and the Commissary this morning, so I think I may just walk there.



Dillon's birthday party was great. He turned four on October 9th, which is also the day we had his party. I rented a bounce house and even one of his friends from school came, it was nice.

Maliya started crawling on her hands and knees Sunday as well. She can also sit herself up now too. I can't believe how fast she is growing and all of the new things she is learning. She recently started waving too. She doesn't do it every time, but it is really cute when she does.

I had an appointment Thursday with my plastic surgeon. Basically when I lose the last 17 pounds I have left, I can call and make an appointment to go back in. I had wanted to lose 20 lbs by Thanksgiving, but Dr Martell made an excellent point. When I lose the last bit of this weight to have my surgery done, when I lose more weight afterwards (which I plan to) he said my breasts would likely sag again a little bit. So my new goal is to lose 40 more pounds by the New Year. If I can do that, I will be about 10-15 lbs from my personal goal weight. I'm torn. I want this reduction now because my back is killing me every single day and with the slightest amount of activity, but at the same time, I don't want to go through this and then have them start sagging even a tiny bit because I lost more weight. I'm so undecided.

I also had an appointment for a physical therapy consult on  Thursday. She showed me some exercises that I can do that will not hurt my back and she also gave me resistance bands to use too.

I feel undefeated and kind of unsupported. I just want to be normal and happy in a physical sense. I don't want to feel like a 65 year old, I want to feel like a 25 year old.

This is making me feel so alone. I have so much anxiety and stress from the thoughts running through my head and everything else going on. I don't want to feel like everything and everyone is working against me. I've come so far already in this journey and part of me feels like it's been for nothing.


Grocery Budget

I have been thinking a lot lately about coupons and what I believe I am doing wrong. I think I am buying too much at one time and that is why I am not seeing bigger savings than I am.

Right now, I spend between $200-$400 every two weeks on grocery shopping. This is not just limited to food, this is also household items, hygiene items and baby items.

Either way, it is simply too much. I know we live in Hawaii, but that is no excuse. I should be working even harder to save more when it comes to food, household and baby purchases.

I am going to go through my coupons and sort them based on those 3 sections. I need  to make a small binder or something, but I don't want this huge book I take with me when I go shopping. I want something small, than I can stick into my purse. I was thinking one of those business card holders. It looks like a little notebook, but inside it has a ton of pages that have 3 business card slots per page. I may just buy 3 for each department, but I haven't decided yet.

Learning to coupon has been a trying experience so far, but I am determined to make this work. I just wish we could leave Hawaii already, so I can shop at normal stores that mail out sale flyers and so there is a better selection of coupons (and more in the paper).

But that is still a year away. I'll have to make due.


Look & Feel

Last night, I spent much time changing my blog's appearance. I changed everything down to the font and I have to say....I really do love it! I wish I knew how to create one of those fancy headers like I see on some blogs around this website, but I don't know how nor do I know anyone who does. Oh well. Simple and basic works fine for me.

So last night, the motor in Maliya's swing completely died. There is still power to the sound and mobile, but the swinging motion is no more. The most important part of the swing is gone, I was not happy. Maliya managed to still fall asleep in the swing twice last night for naps despite no swing motion, that was a success at least. I called Mattel this morning to see if I could get a replacement motor or something. The very kind woman said the motor for that swing is on back order (hmm, I wonder why) and that it isn't even due until very late this month. She said it'd probably be even longer for me to get the part than that, so she said they would give me a full refund. Since I no longer have the reciept from when I bought the swing, she said they refund the retail price. That is a-ok with me, $159.99 back into my pocket. Once I recieve the pre-paid shipping labels from them, I have to ship the middle legs back. After they get them, they will mail my refund check. Hopefully this all happens much more quickly that it sounds like it will.

Now that the swing is no more, I am going to take it apart today and put the jumper in that spot. We'll have a little bit more room in the living room now, so that is great! Maliya is trying out naptime in her bouncy seat. It has sound and a vibe setting and bounces slightly when she moves, or if I bounce it. She fell asleep on her own, so that is good. I may not even buy a new swing, full or travel sized. It would be a waste if the bouncer is enough for her to nap in during the day. I would like a pack and play, it's much smaller than the full size playpen we have. Then she could nap in that during the day, downstairs. We'll see once I get the refund for her swing. Maybe I can find a decent priced pack and play on CraigsList or something.

I picked up a 2-pack of black plastic table covers for the 6 foot table I am renting for Dillon's party, as well as a pack of white napkins. So he is all set other than picking up his last gift later this afternoon. I am starting to get excited!

new headband :)

lovin' that silk & minky blanket mommy made <3


Learning to Coupon

Learning to coupon has been very trying for me.

The two times I've shopped and used many, many coupons I have only saved 14% and 10%. I know I can save more. I know there is a way to. I just don't really know how yet. And it is hard to coupon at the Commissary when they don't mail out flyers with sales like normal grocery stores.

I just want to save my family money. I want to spend less on things that we can get for cheap or even free so we have more money to save and spend on other things we need. It's frustrating that money is tight because having two children in Hawaii is catching up to us.

It is even more frustrating that I can't get a job to help my husband out a little bit. That is why I want to learn to coupon, the correct way. At least then I can help out his wallet a little bit since I can't get a job and bring income to our family that way.

I wish I had someone to guide me through this.